THROWWWWWBACK!

In my never ending journey of self love and discovery I find myself missing home. When I say "home" I'm not referring to a place I lived, but the music and people I loved.

Marina.

 

 

 

I met and became instant friends with Marina when we were 11 years old at vacation bible camp. She is one of the only people I can actually say shaped me into who I am. We never went to the same school but could not be kept apart we always had weekend sleepovers and sometimes I'd even stay the whole weekend and it was nonstop laughter. I even remember Spending holidays together thanksgiving and Christmas were shared; her family always embraced me as their own and I always felt like one of them. She is the sister I never had and even though we were the same age I always felt I was learning from her like a big sister. Staying up all night making hilarious videos and watching Lord Of the Rings and love scenes from movies was a funny pastime but we didn't care we had the best time! Years flew by and we became teenage girls with boyfriends and dramas. Slowly we grew apart. I missed our friendship but life had thrown us up in the air, left us in free fall for so long until we finally hit the ground and landed on opposite ends of the universe it seemed. It had been 3 years since we hung out and my god it was overdue.

 

   We weren't even half done catching up but we only had so much time. It was nothing short of another silly and fun girls night just like before and it made my heart warm and even a little bit fuller. I can't wait to explore this new Grown up friendship with her because she was a missing piece and I feel like I got it back! In light of this reminiscing feeling I'm going back to my roots with my music also. I'm all about Mae and the Destination Beautiful album, Brand New deja entendu, and Death Cab For Cutie Transatlanticism too. It takes me back and it makes me feel 13 again and I love it, nothing else makes me feel more like myself or more sane.

 

 

I'm taking care of my grandma during the day its been a week since she had her knee replacement surgery. Its really great to be able to help and I really enjoy being there for my family. I know everyone says family will be there for each other and blood is thicker than water but its nice to actually prove it.

 

 

 

 

3 best jams of the moment.

                                               Lindstrom and Christabelle -Lovesick

 

 

Maximum Balloon -Tiger

 

 

Cheers Elephant - Peoples

 

 

 

 

They are hardly of the moment since these songs are far from new but they are still my top faves right now :D

pretty groovy.

So after some much needed soul searching I decided to go with my original idea and major in education.

I am a person who strongly believes in god and that each and every little thing that happens in our life all contributes to the big picture. I do believe in signs. I'll tell you what I mean.

a few weeks ago Valentin and I were leaving the grocery store and as always I can't keep my hands off my little man I'm constantly hugging and kissing him and tickling him because I adore him and can't help myself. I'm giving him a big kiss as I'm about to put him in his carseat  and this older man sees me and he stops and says "You better kiss him as much as you can because they grow up so fast and you'll remember them this little and wonder where the time went!" I stopped and I said your right that's exactly why I'm staying home with him full time. He said "That's why I'm glad I was a teacher because when they were off so was I and I'm grateful for that time we had". This resonated with me and straight out of high school I always said I wanted to teach. My mom is a teacher one of my best friends teaches 1st grade, and the most influential person I ever met was a teacher of mine as well.

I believe it was a sign that the older man spoke to me because ultimately it was what he told me that helped me make my decision. I love my son and being off of school at the same time would be great. I want to make the most of these short years that I have with him.


My first 2 classes will be a remedial math class and English. The funny thing is Chris and I are possibly going to be in the same English class. He has to retake it and get an A to get into his Program in 2014 which is only months away! Being in the same class with him seems so strange since we've never really been in school at the same time ever. So when he told me he had to retake that class we both couldn't help but smile allot even after we tried to hide it! We've never seen each other in that kind of setting so its very new and exciting and...kinda hot!

a night spent wet.

So it turns out there was a flash flood warning while we were out so the night did not necessarily go as planned.

The night ended with Chris clearing the dance floor and dancing up a storm it was definitely one for the books and only appropriate that all eyes were him on his special night.

I'll be registering for classes this week which I'm entirely excited about.  Baby steps is the key at least the way I see it. Start with a couple classes now move on up little by little until Valentin is off to preschool; And make myself the successful entrepreneur boss bitch I always knew I was.

We've got family in from out of town this week. Sometimes I wonder if I'm completely crazy for wanting a little breathing room. My husbands family insists on doing EVERYTHING together ALL day EVERY day. I do love them but I wish we could get a little breather sometimes.

My sweet mama got this adorable onesie for little man

Son, I couldn't agree more!

birthday festivities

Chris my one, my only, father of my son, husband and best friend. Its yo birthday!!!!!! 25  never looked so good honey.



Today deserves a special post because obviously its Chris birthday weekend and

We're going out tonight!

Friends will come from all corners of the city to our favorite Westside spots to celebrate our beloved Chris. If you read my blog then you know we rarely leave our son Valentin with a sitter (the sitter being my mother in law) I do love her and trust only her to watch our little man; But still I feel like as his mom its my sole responsibility to be with him entirely.

But on rare occasions like this I fully enjoy a night to unwind :)


So Our first stop will be our ultimate favorite Hope and Anchor. Personally I'd rather end the night there since its our fave but its birthday boys choice!

P.S. I can't choose which polka dotted items to wear tonight. Thought?

 

Also this is my tumblr: la-sirena-la-mer.tumblr.com/

Sweet baby jesus

 

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so much to say and nowhere to begin

Things around here have been go go go! Everything is moving so quickly and in so many positive  ways. I feel like gushing just thinking about it. The last time I updated was back in May and I was so excited to go to our annual neon desert music festival. Well we went and we only really saw some of Wolfgang Gartner, Molotov, and Martin Solveig. We missed Best Coast :( but as music festivals go its always a swap amiright? I've been falling back in love with myself and its really cool because I haven't felt this happy with myself in a long time. The more comfortable I am being 100% myself the more I fall in love with the person I truly am. Its getting so much easier to live in my own skin and I love it. I'm so happy :)


I think I've mentioned my struggles with friends in the past but my problem was that I was putting all my eggs in one basket and well... it was a really shitty batch of eggs.... so I'm branching out and making new friends which is an entirely new concept to me but it is going exceptionally well! I have 2 entirely new friends and I chose to befriend them because I can see they have genuinely good hearts and are good people and we've been hanging out allot lately. But I've been talking to new people and being less afraid and everyone has been really sweet and receptive to me.


Valentin is doing really well he says new words every day it seems! He is so smart and I see more and more of his personality everyday. He is such an incredible little man and I feel lucky to be his mother. He's been having play dates with friends and he's learning a lot about social interaction. I pretty much get to see what it will be like if we decide to have another baby someday! I am not ready at all for a new baby and I'm doing everything I can to protect myself but it seems like we don't have a choice sometimes. By that I mean IUDs don't always work, the pill isn't foolproof and the shot.....well I am not even sure. I got a mini heart attack the other day when a friend of ours told u she had her IUD in when her Dr revealed she was pregnant. It made me feel like me being on the pill didn't even stand a chance. I'm happy with just my little man right now and I really hope it will stay that way.

I've been doing test prep all summer for the accuplacer. I plan on taking only a couple of classes this fall since Valentin is a little bit older now he nurses less so I can start on the college course. Its going to be a very slow ride and honestly I'm in no rush. My family is still priority one and being home to raise my son is the most important thing to me. That's why I'm only taking 1-2 classes depending on the length of time they last I don't want to be gone more than 2 hours a day; But I do undertsnad the importance of starting on a path now so by the time little man goes to pre school I'll be getting somewhere.

One thing I haven't been giving allot of attention to is my body... this is so not good and I hate feeling like I'm neglecting my physical well being but my god Its hard to fit it in! I own the P90X DVDs but I'm gonna be 100% honest I'm so intimidated by them that I haven't even started. I felt the same about crossfit but I carried through with that so i'm sure I can handle this, again it all ties into not having the time.

Studio Ghibli isn't something I've ever been interested in before but tumblr has really made them appeal to me so now I'm trying to watch them all!

Well this is everything in a nutshell and I have so much more to say but it is so late and I need sleep!

au revoir!