a night spent wet.

So it turns out there was a flash flood warning while we were out so the night did not necessarily go as planned.

The night ended with Chris clearing the dance floor and dancing up a storm it was definitely one for the books and only appropriate that all eyes were him on his special night.

I'll be registering for classes this week which I'm entirely excited about.  Baby steps is the key at least the way I see it. Start with a couple classes now move on up little by little until Valentin is off to preschool; And make myself the successful entrepreneur boss bitch I always knew I was.

We've got family in from out of town this week. Sometimes I wonder if I'm completely crazy for wanting a little breathing room. My husbands family insists on doing EVERYTHING together ALL day EVERY day. I do love them but I wish we could get a little breather sometimes.

My sweet mama got this adorable onesie for little man

Son, I couldn't agree more!

birthday festivities

Chris my one, my only, father of my son, husband and best friend. Its yo birthday!!!!!! 25  never looked so good honey.



Today deserves a special post because obviously its Chris birthday weekend and

We're going out tonight!

Friends will come from all corners of the city to our favorite Westside spots to celebrate our beloved Chris. If you read my blog then you know we rarely leave our son Valentin with a sitter (the sitter being my mother in law) I do love her and trust only her to watch our little man; But still I feel like as his mom its my sole responsibility to be with him entirely.

But on rare occasions like this I fully enjoy a night to unwind :)


So Our first stop will be our ultimate favorite Hope and Anchor. Personally I'd rather end the night there since its our fave but its birthday boys choice!

P.S. I can't choose which polka dotted items to wear tonight. Thought?

 

Also this is my tumblr: la-sirena-la-mer.tumblr.com/

random

Ok so this is maybe very random and i haven't been updating much, i'm in the middle of a huge change and i can feel it. I love reading some blogs but it just seems like everyone is doing the same shit. Its all modcloth and bows and sock buns and shit. I'm not into it....Everyone does and says the same thing i am so uninspired. I stopped getting on tumblr as much even, theres hardly anything fun to see anymore! Even the funny stuff is kinda few and far between.

Currently have been loving GIRLS on HBO though especially this weeks episode when Marnie sang Kanye West and Daft Punk-Stronger in a really slow creepy way at her ex boyfriends office party hahahaha! Perf.

We've spent the past 8 days being sick seeing doctors taking medicine and kind of almost getting better. It has been rough to say the very least.

This means we were all sick for Valentins' birthday last friday, all weekend and at Yo Gabba Gabba live, and every other day this week. I was disapointed because we bought the Yo Gabba tickets to celebrate Valentins birthday and all of us being sick kind of took away from the specialness of the occasion. We're all starting to feel better now i just wanted to make my little guy so happy and its just a real shame he was not feeling well on his special day. 


I cannot believe it has been a year since i had my little boy, its been insane and wonderful all together, every day and i'm so glad that he's here, I thank god more than a few times a day for this amazing little guy.

Chris has been working later and sleeping more and he's super crabby all the time now i mean i don't blame him his schedule sucks right now i'm supportive, i still take him lunch every day but we've definitely had better times.

I spent all of wednesday with my good friend Melanie we hung out at her house for a good while then went to target because i had to buy a gift for our friend Sandra (aka my hero) She started teaching 1st grade this year and recently bought a house so she's having her housewarming party this saturday. I picked out a few things from her registry and one item that wasn't but i know she would totally love so i took it also. Melanie and I picked chris up during his lunch and we all had sushi little man loves miso soup so he had no complaints. Afterwards we dropped chris back at work and the 3 of us went to the park i was pushing Valentin on a swing while Mel and i just talked until it was dark. Spending the day with her was awesome bu now she's off with Amanda to Austin for SXSW which is awesome! I'm so excited for them plus Melanie could potentially be moving there pretty soon so she'll be scoping things out in the down time.

Changes

I'm so happy about the changes that are underway!! Chris is planning his schedule for next semester and he'll also be getting a new job with better pay and better hours(double win) which we are so glad about since the job he has now leaves little room for anything other than sleep. I know how much he wants to get back into the swing of things with crossfit and so do I! It all depends on his work schedule though and luckily that will be changing :)


My girlfriends Amanda and Melanie got backfrom their Vegas trip last night and were gushing about their trip. Amanda tells me the Chippendales show was the highlight of her trip she told me she wasn't really looking forward to it because she knew what to expect but once she got there she told me she was screaming and jumping and can't wait to see the show again. They told me they shopped and drank like crazy during the day which is what its all about during down time apparently. I also heard something about a party bus! I'm glad to have them back and we're all supposed to get together and have a night out this weekend so i'm looking forward to that plus they brought me back some prezzies i'm not gonna lie i'm a little scared as to what they may have brought back i don't want a banana hammock from the Chippendales show or anything ;) hahaha!


I've been doing allot for me lately, finally getting around to throwing out some of my clothes which i've had for too long to say on the world wide web (yeah that long) and i'm being much more careful picking out new clothes i try to stick to what i know i like and quality pieces that can be mixed and matched, quality over quantity. I've spruced up my makeup routine which i'm thrilled about! I've literally been doing the same eyeliner since i was in high school so i'm embracing this new change its perfect because i'm not the same person and its nice to finally start reflecting on the change on my appearance and not just my attitude and persepective. The next step is dyeing my hair I only want about a shade or two lighter but its still a big change i have the dye already I just want to be right in the middle of light and dark it has to be that perfect balance. Although I love contrasts its too intense to go back to being platinum/white blonde and black hair is too boring and impossible to get rid of so this will be my first in between.


I used to LOVE Tumblr so much all of my free time I'd be logged in and I used to cry from laughing so hard at the posts and memes, this was back in 2011. These days it feel like it has become a really negative place and chock full of pictures of models and the occult. I'm not into it. I just want to laugh! I rarely see anymore funny stuff and i have to scroll forever just to find one thing worth reblogging. Maybe i'm following the wrong blogs. Methinks i'm over it. I'm all about Pinterest these days. I've tried dozens of tutorials,DIYs, and shortcuts for every day life. Not to mention the amazing wonders of  cocout oil! I've never been so inspired to clean or organize ever! Even chris has learned a thing or two from it. I have about a thousand activities and ideas saved for Valentin when he grows up too. I'm off to make Chris lunch its almost that time again!

I keep waking up around 3

This comes and goes but lately its been consistent. I lay in bed until Chris wakes up at 5 or 6 I make his breakfast and coffee so he can take it to school, bub is usually asleep through all this which makes it allot easier. I keep having these nightmares maybe i watch too many movies....


I watched Melancholia the day before that Asteroid was going to fly by, I swear i hadn't heard about it until after i watched the movie otherwise i would have steered clear! I know I've mentioned that i'm anxious and paranoid at best when it comes to doomsday stuff and end of the world theories. I can get a little carried away. I remind myself that God is with us always and we need only have faith and i get over it but the first thoughts are the heaviest. It was visually stunning. It was similar in the way it was filmed to Antichrist plus Charlotte Gainsbourg was one of the leads in that movie also, both are directed by Lars von Trier he's releasing yet another film with Charlotte Gainsboug as the main character called Nymphomaniac. That devastatingly handsome blonde Vampire from True blood was in Melancholia and will also be in his next film.

Life at home lately has been lovely. I've fully enjoyed staying at home with our son for the past year almost, I'm planning for morning classes in the fall i still don't feel great about leaving Valentin at daycare but the college offers childcare which i feel better about because at least we'll be close to each other and only apart for a couple of hours a day. I don't really want to go back to doing cosmetology again, i'm ready to study for something bigger. We are celebrating Valentins first birthday next month with tickets to Yo Gabba Gabba live! I can't wait to see the look on his little face to see his favorite characters in person. His teeth are all starting to come in at the same time it seems i guess its because he sprouted his first tooth just 2 months ago so they are all in a hurry to come in. I'm keeping the baby tylenol on hand even though he's hardly been fussy at all. I'll be starting to wean him off the breast late next month I know it is going to be difficult but the way i see it we really haven't even scraped the surface on the difficult things, this little boy has only been here a year lets give it another few and i'll be wishing things were as easy as they are now.

Wednesday last week i took advantage of an amazing deal on Fortyeight its a sister site to Solestruck my all time favorite shoe store. I've mentioned them before you really can't beat their prices and they always have the Jeffrey Campbells i'm pining for! Basically fortyeight has an event for shoes up to 80% off but only for 48 hours. This past wedenesday was their first event i believe and they featured Jeffrey Campbell, Doc Martens, Cheap  Monday and Miista. So basically its first come first serve and once they are sold thats it. I was able to get these JCs at 40% off :)

All i have are heels and wedges from jc but no flats or sandals, this is an excellent point Chris made and pretty much talked me into taking them. I'm 5'0 and curvy which isn't the best combination so i'm always trying to look a little taller and longer.

My dear Grandfather, the original Valentin celebrated his birthday on Valentines day and we had a party for him on saturday at my aunts house. It was unequivocal bliss, they served "Cabrito" which is baby goat in spanish and its exactly what he wanted he was so happy the whole time and it lit my heart up. There was a young man there playing guitar and singing all the spanish favorites and each time we would clap and sometimes sing along. My little Valentin was getting an allergic reaction to something and kept rubbing his eye and it was getting red and swollen i didn't have his zyrtec with me so we had to go home but before we did i gave my grandfather his gift. There were 3 hand painted tins in the shape of a pineapple, a swordfish, and  a boat each to remind him of  Mazatlan Mexico his favorite place to visit, mine also. Our family used to vacation there reguarly but ever since My Grandfather was diagnosed with cancer at the end of 2010 there has been little to no vacations. I'm hoping God will allow us all to take a trip there together soon I want my son to see the ocean and i want to be there with my whole family and especially my grandfather.

Contrasts

Its taken me years but i can finally narrow down the best way to describe myself in the most accurate way.

I love contrasts.

So simple. I love one extreme and it's exact opposite,  I am hardly ever in between I like both ends of the spectrum in every aspect of my life. I'm passionate about anything that i do and i'm drawn to passionate people whatever it may be that they are passionate about. Seeing that kind of genuine infatuation with something makes me giddy. I remeber once when cnn was on in the break room of the call center i was working at at the time i saw the protests all over the world and i fell so in love with them. This sounds weird and maybe its just the way i put things but, i really did. I saw this video today its a band called Urban Struggles they played a show here in El Paso last night and i caught this video on tumblr from another local. I saw it and i fell in love. Not because the singer is naked ok (i'm married and fucking crazy for my man) but there is passion here! The people here don't care what people think of them they are having a good time and they are passionate about the music. I love this. Plain and simple i fucking love the passion they have it is completely inspiring to me.

good vibrations

The highlight of my week was seeing one of my very favorite artists Toro Y Moi live!!!! It was amazing i had this incredible feeling the entire time i just couldn't stop smiling. Nothing for me is more enjoyable and satisfying than seeing live music especially when it is artists i know and love. The show was at this gorgeous venue Tricky Falls here in El Paso that Jim Ward (singer of Sparta and former memeber of At The Drive In) owns, He also owns the very chic bar upstairs called Bowie Feathers. It was me and Chris plus my two best friends Amanda and Melanie It is almost always us four when we get a chance to go out and its never ever a dull moment!

 Chris mom is the only person I've ever trusted to watch our Valentin, no one else has ever babysat for us and probably never will to be quite honest. This means we book her at least a month or two in advance to babysit so we can see a show, or go to a party or a bar. We're perfectly ok with this since our son is the most important part of our life his growing up in a healthy safe environment is prority one and honestly bars and shows will always be around but Valentin will not always be our baby. He's growing everyday i just want to go back again just for a little while just to smell his hair when he was a newborn and just to hold my tiny boy in my arms just after he was born. It almost feels tragic that you can never ever go back again it feel like sand slipping through my finger no matter what i can't hold on to the present very long because we are constantly moving forward with more speed each and every day it seems but i'm still none the less so grateful and proud to be a mother.

I feel good about the fact that we are at home the majority of the time with our son and no matter what we do or where we go he is always with us and thats important. When i was very small up until i was a teenager my mom would leave me and sister with babysitters and her friends all the time because she wanted to be clubbing and partying all the time and because of that allot of not good things happened to us it was always weirder for me since i was younger my sister is 3 years older than me so she kind of went along with things she was old enough to know what was going on. Fast forward 10 years and i spent the entirety of my teenage years babysitting my two little brothers while my mom went out thursday through saturday nights. I guess some people don't get the night life out of their system no matter their age. I really don't ever want to be like that. We're satisfied going out once a month or every other month we know we aren't missing out on much anyway but it just makes it all the more fun because we don't always do it and those nights are memorable.


In many ways i am still getting to know myself, but i do know exactly what i do not want to be and thats half the journey.

Hookey

Chris took the day off today and we had a little play day :) First we took little man to his dentist appointment. He's got his two bottom teeth but you can see a little of his canine tooth coming in he's been pretty good not fussy so i didn't think he was teething but boy was i wrong! Then I had a hair appointment, my hair was getting pretty nasty at the ends (doesn't help that Valentin likes to pull my hair when he's nursing!)After that we drove over to Crave which is a really good place to eat if your ever in El Paso(looove the 808 burger). Bub slept while Chris and i had a grown up drink each over lunch and laughed and talked a while. We saw This Is 40 after lunch which was hilarious! I was literally laughing from the beginning to the end it was too funny! Michaels has a 3 for 1$ acrylic paint sale and its right behind the theater so we moseyed over and we bought some pretty paints. Chris hates going to craft stores with me but i remind him that it benefits him too because he lets me paint his plugs :) the more variety the better! We finally came home to chill for a bit and i popped over to the grocery store to buy some salmon to make which ended up taking almost an hour because there were only two lanes open (why do grocery stores do this? idgi) i bought my very first succulent while i was there and painted the pot this evening inspired by this pin and it came out beautifully and only took about 10 minutes! What i really want is to make a hanging terrarium like the one i saw here on Yesterday's sweetheart now that is an awesome project! We ended our night with dinner and putting Valentin to bed and doing a little hobby time individually. An amazing end to our week!

hello 2013!

I can't believe we're still here! Just kidding I never really bought into that Mayan calendar thing....Truthfully i did....and I had been dreading it for like 4 years since I first heard about it in high school! Something i'm embarrassed to admit is i'm always buying into how the world will end or what will happen to humanity, how we'll all die ect. When i was 7 years old all the older kids at my elementary school would talk about a huge commet hitting earth in 2000 and y2k wiping everyone out and i remeber like playing at P.E. time with my peers and just looking at all their beautiful faces and thinking "we're all going to die soon!" Ugh i get so obsessed with something and i even get really sad  so much that it affects my daily life and then Chris finally shakes me out of it but my goodness i wish i wasn't so gullible with these theories. Shit is damaging to my health!

On a good note I have decided after months and months, to start a small business this year! I am so so excited to do this i'm mapping everything out, have been for 3 weeks now its going to be a slow project i really want to do it right so i can always have this to lean back on. I'm an entrepreneur it runs in my family, so i got this. I just need a name and i already know what i'm going to be making and selling but over time that could change into something else so the name has to be pretty general which makes it more fun :)

Neither Chris nor I have been to crossfit since the beginning of december. We had two family members in and out of the hospital plus a death in the family needless to say christmas was not celebrated this year. December was relentless.

Chris and I both miss crossfit, we need to feel like we killed it, pushed ourselves to the edge and over it, like we accomplished something physically challenging everyday. With his new school schedule though we're going to only have one window to go and we're going to have to take turns with Valentin so its going to be pretty hard but thats what it costs.

January 31st is fast approaching! well sort of... Toro Y Moi one of my favorite artists ever, is playing a show here in el paso! I'm such a nerd i bought our tickets back in october! Whatever, i love them and i'm all about making future plans to be excited about :) I cannot wait!!!

Valentin's first birthday is coming up also; March the 8th this little boy turns 1 and for his birthday, that following monday we will be at Yo Gabba Gabba live at the plaza theater here in our wonderful city!

Lots of good stuff coming up i can't wait! I'm looking forward to taking a few classes next fall once valentin is a little bit older also and hopefully by then i'll have a good solid grip on running my business so i can continue staying home with my little man too

meh!

overcast

This past week was a whirlwind of pediatrician appts, kleenex all crumpled up and sleepless nights. The three of us are getting over a cold this weekend and its our weekly screening of walking dead tonight here at our house which is really the silver lining to our not so great week. I only went to crossfit twice and i ate very carelessly and i'm definitely not proud but hey i've been sick and looking after both my sicky poos' so that makes it ok right? Chris and I are making plans for this thanksgiving week we're trying to fit everyone in which is difficult because my mom and dad live across town from each other and chris family is right in the middle! I'm making all the fixings this year thanks to chris mom. She has taught me everything i need to know to make a well rounded thanksgiving dinner and i'm putting it to good use this year. I'm not one for Black fridays but i sure am when it comes to the online deals! It all started black friday last year i noticed all the sweet deals on etsy, Betsey Johnson, and on Solestruck, nearly everything was handsomely discounted and i was able to bring in a pretty awesome haul! This year I've got my eyes on these little numbers

I love these Lita's with a clear heel! I'm 5'0 so i'm a huge fan of jeffrey campbell shoes! Chris is 5'9 so i can afford to wear as many heels as i want without being too tall. Plus jc has allot of platform on their shoes so they are a breeze to walk in! I always shop jc on Solestruck  and we buy most of our shoes there in general because they do not charge tax nor shipping and their customer service is flawless*

I love love love fur!! (faux of course) nothing to me feels more glamorous or feminine than fur and this coat from nasty gal in particular.

I'm on the lookout for a big statement "bib" necklace like this one here. I love the simplicity of this outfit its right up my ally, all black with one statement piece, this is my holiday inspiration outfit for sure.


I'm learning a little about cameras so i can pick out the best one for this space. I never realized how many cameras there are and how different each result can be!

On a saturday

It was WINDY in el paso today! We woke up pretty early my little boy had a stuffy nose and couldn't eat or sleep comfortably (yes we co sleep and i still breastfeed). I had a moment today when i stopped looked at chris and my son Valentin and i realized "wow i am a mother" I kissed my little guys sweet waves on his forehead and i closed my eyes i can't believe how lucky i am. I can't believe chris and i are raising our baby together we've talked about this since we were teenagers now apart from being my best friend he is my husband. I'm so thankful for what i have. We're not perfect, or have great style, we may not be rich but having each other is worth more than all the sunken treasure beneath the sea. We are so lucky to have so many people and our families who love and support us no matter what and always want to help and be there for us. I don't know what is better than this. This is God. God makes this possible and i believe it wholeheartedly, i see it when i wake up in the morning and see my son sitting up smiling at me with his big gorgeous smile and bed head, i see it in my husband when he reads my mind over and over again i'm so very very happy nothing could take my faith away.

Infinitely sore

This week has been an interesting one it has ended with chris having the whole weekend off! (he hasn't had one since may or june). Crossfit this week was rough it is hard to climb back up again after getting off the monkey bars, but i have climbed and i'm back on track! Valentin, Chris and i are watching a little gilmore girls before we head over to the suprmarket for some fresh veggies to go with the shrimp we're having for lunch, then we're off to the park for a walk. Chris is totally maxed out on gilmore girls i borrowed the 3rd season from my sister and i've been watching it all week but i promised when i finished we could do whatever he wanted. I have been feeling so very inspired lately to use my hands to make things, plant, paint, clean! I don't know where this hunch is coming from but i feel sooooo good about it! Productivity ladies and gents, the cure to any and all low lows. Well that and physical activity of course. I'm still working on getting some amazing pics of us and our day to day stuff i love my family and i really want to share them here:) Well we're off for the day, goodbye!

Eventful

Chris and I went out with friends last night thanks to his mom for watching our bub. It was nice i felt out of place allot of the time but i always do almost anywhere anyway so i guess thats not really relevant but we did have a great time with my two buddies Amanda and Melanie. This was our first time at both bars we went to so it was really exciting. We started at a bar called Hope and Anchor and It was really casual and...unstuffy? I don't know I liked the vibes there mostly and so did Chris. We ran into our friend Lorena whom Chris and i met back in the myspace days like 7 years ago and found out that Amanda had recently met her when she took a trip to Austin a few weeks ago, they totally hit it off over there so if was a fun little reunion for all of us. We spent a while there and to be honest i probably would have liked to have stayed there the whole night but Amanda wanted to take us to Black Market. It was just down the street but paking downtown is a nightmare so it took a while. After we got down we started walking over to the bar and once we got inside i swear it looked just like how my apartment was decorated. The music was epic i even spotted this guy from the crossfit gym i go to. I couldn't help thinking that it was weird to see him with a shirt on. All in all i had a great time, i mistook strangers for people i knew on two occassions,embarrassing!  But a great time! Just as soon as we got home our little guy was waiting up for us with a big smile and it was the cherry on top of our evening, and really our lives.